If there is anything I can advise you on it will be the dreaded prison recall. Prison visiting and writing letters was a breeze compared to the anxiety of my partners release.
It starts on day 1. maybe day 2 or 3 actually, because day 1 is 2nd honeymoon and pleasantries, along with a bottle of Vodka and a new Ann Summers outfit. Women prepare their partners release from prison to perfection. Everything seems to going well but the first days of release do. We fall in love all over again but in my case, and in my hearts of hearts, I knew that change was just a word. I hung on to his promise that he would change but I was doubting Thomas on that score. For the first 4 weeks he was actively seeking work and looking in the Job Centre everyday. I was warming to the prospect that he was going on the right path for once. After 2 months though, cracks appeared and he started socialising with someone I warned him not to. I suffer from anxiety and take meds for it, but I felt the horrible sensations coming back because he started to take the piss by coming home in the early hours of the morning. Its a shit feeling and if any of you have been through the anxiety of prison release and hoping your partner won't go back inside, then you will know what I am talking about. It's like having a kid all over again waiting for the key to go in the door and breathing a sigh of relief when it does. When the key goes in the door, it means they are not locked up in the nick. Am I on my own with this? Is anyone else paranoid every time their ex prisoner partner goes out alone? I wished he was released from prison on a tag because seriously that is a safer bet. We get used to knowing where our prison partner's are. At 8.00pm every night they are banged up. It's a bit of a shock to the system when they get out thats for sure. Give me a normal relationship any day of week. Do our men know what normal means?
Missing Our Loved Ones In Prison
